You better duck, when I show up, the goo goo muck

As promised the Halloween post...



I found this letter with a picture 20 years ago. It is addressed to a Craig Boswell, The Polor King/CGG to an street in Denver. I was in Gainesville, F-L-A at the time. The letter came from Jefferson NY.

The letter reads as follows:

Dear Craig-
Twice now you've been in my dreams-once after I overturned the Murphy's car, you came walking out of the woods in your coveralls to repair the damage. So I'm rather expecting you to show up any day now-here, at your dad's in Florida. Then I won't have to write you a letter telling you everyhting that's not going on in my life right now.

That's me in there-instead of Europe-no regrets.

Go ahead and find her and fall in love-better not wait for me to...

Gail


To all Gails and Craigs everywhere-Happy Halloween, and hopefully you found that girl!

The bats have left the belltower...

Here is my very sad copy of Breakfast of Champions. It fell apart on me last night, and today I was putting the final touches on my son's Frakenstein outfit and had the duct tape handy. I'm sure Kurt would approve.

I am committed to finishing the stack of books on my night table. This is the time of year when I think about my New Year's resolutions and think, holy crap I still haven't read all of these books I started about 5 years ago. This is the year I will finish History of Evolution dammit!

Reading breakfast of Champions makes me wonder if my father read it. I wish I could ask him. A very funny thing about this book, one of the main characters owns a Burger Chef, and so did my dad.

Here's a pic of his store.




For a very long time I had an ill conceived idea about what this book was about. One of them had to do with eating a large breakfast. Was it about an athlete? I didn't know, but now I do and I feel I am a little wiser. At least I know the title is about drinking. That's a relief.

I have a very special Halloween post for tomorrow. So please come back.
Thank you
The Management

I am a traveler of both time and space...

I am much better today. When that dark cloud hits, nothing helps. It's a terrible place to be, and I'm not one to take it lightly because I get very afraid I won't get over it.

Here I am though, did these this afternoon. Painting and being happy with what came out is really nice too. All my studio time should be this productive.

If anyone saw me paint, you'd think I was in this huge rush before the flood.

"I have to finish this one painting and we'll go Noah! Forget the animals, I need that canvas!"

Swallowing diamonds, a cutting throat...

My visit with mom was ok. If I didn't occupy her every minute, I would find her crying. I'm sure she sees me and wishes her perfect daughter didn't die, and what did she do to deserve this horrible thing happening to her.

I would find myself drifting when she would start telling me about how the devil gets into your head and puts bad thoughts into it. Then she would tell me that I don't understand. (because I believe that one's mind is making all of these worries. And who is she to say that to me? I have never spoken those words to my mom. Even when she doesn't have a notion about what I do or feel) So I was 13 again and getting a lecture about how I need to take my son to church and to talk to my other sister.

I just want to set the record straight and say I was not brought up with this crazy Fundamentalist Christian stuff. This has recently happened, especially with my mom. If my dad were alive, I'm sure it would be grounds for divorce. Seriously.

The little man made her laugh with crazy antics and all sorts of wacky stories.

I also carefully handpicked mom safe movie to keep her entertained. Spanglish, Connie and Carla, Bangor Sisters(I have secretly wanted to see this), and Failure to Launch.

No one died which was a big relief. And some made her laugh.

We went into the city one day and met Melvin for lunch at a cute diner. It was a nice warm day. Another relief.

She told me once she got home that she really did enjoy herself, even if it didn't seem like she did. I'm proud of her for saying that and grateful. She did seem unhappy. She's forever changed. And she has worried herself so much all of her life for something like this to happen. Not on a conscious level but really worried something tragic would happen to one of her girls, and it has.

I was working in the lab, late one night...

The longest meme ever and it's from acumamakiki.


When was the last time you shaved? last night

What were you doing this morning at 8am? I was cleaning the house in case a realtor called to show someone our lovely abode. It's a pain in the ass really because you have to keep your house so clean and tidy as if the Queen were going to show up.

And 15 minutes ago? Took my dog's fluffy bed outside so she could lay in the sun.

Are you any good at math? I used to be.

Your prom night? I went to my senior prom with the boy I loved when I was in the first grade.. His mom was our art teacher in grade school and I think she was a big influence on me.

Do you have any famous ancestors?Not so much. I have relatives that were pilgrims and soldiers in all the US wars but no one famous.

Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school? Yes.

Last thing you received in the mail? A check from Spain that I had to sign for. It was kind of cool. Someone bought an old concert tee.

How many different beverages have you drunk today? Hot water and lemon (cleans the body) coffee, orange juice.

Do you ever leave messages on other people's machines? All the time.

Do you draw your name in the sand when your on the beach? I usually do my initials

What's the most painful dental procedure you've had? Root canal when I was 8.

What is out your back door? A red colored deck, then a stone patio below, then a very perfectly lovely British garden with 2 Japanese Maples.

Any plans for Friday night? Pizza, beer and a movie. At home.

Do you like what the ocean does to your hair? I miss it really.

Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds of popcorn for Christmas? No

Have you ever been to a planetarium? Are you kidding, I'm the biggest nerd, of course I have.

Do you re-use towels after you shower?Again, are you kidding. I am not one to use and then suddenly it's dirty.

Some things you're excited about? Moving

What is your favorite flavor of Jello? Cherry.

Are any of your grandparents alive? No.

Where do you keep your change?Coins in my purse are in a Hello Kitty change purse I found in San Francisco. In the house, if it's loose, it's snagged by my 4 year old. Otherwise, it goes in a pink pig.

When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people? I can't remember.

What kind of winter coat do you have? Black pea coat.

What was the weather like on the day you graduated? High school or college. It was very sunny and warm for HS(we graduated at Sea World) then college it was cold and crisp December.

Do you sleep with the door to your bedroom open or closed? Winter closed, summer open.

8 Lasts.

* last kiss. This morning
* last beverage. coffee
* last movie watched. Cache
* last phone call. Husband
* last CD played. Weezer
* last 'i love you'. This morning
* last time you cried. Yesterday
* last alcoholic beverage. Last night-Whiskey and seltzer.

6 have you evers.....

* dated someone twice. Nope.
* been cheated on. No
* kissed someone. Yes-I love kissing. I would have been great in the 1950's when everyone kissed.
* kissed someone you regret. yes
* been depressed. comes and goes.
* been drunk and thrown up. Painfully yes

6 things you've done today.

* Ate cinnamon toast with my boys
* started christmas list
* Filed some bills
* wrote to do list
* made beds
* got dressed

4 places you've lived.

Orlando F-L-A

Gainesville, Fl

Atlanta, Georgia

Norwalk, Conn

3 favorite colors.

Dark Brown, orange, ceruelen blue. Really tons I could go on and on.

2 things to do before you die.

Travel the world, and have a retrospective(twice)

Q & A

Is there one person who is on your mind right now? Absolutely

Where is the last place you went? Indian restaurant and picked up lunch

Who is the last person who called you? Husband

Do you have any siblings? 2 sisters. One died earlier this year.

Do you smile often? I do. I have smile lines to prove it, and I hate that.

Do you think someone is thinking of you right now? Probably

Do you wish on stars? Always.

Whose bed did you sleep in last night? What? I'm not some kind of playa!

What color shirt are you wearing? Red turtleneck

Do you have any pets? Black lab, black cat, and a catfish

What color are your bed-sheets? White

What were you doing last night at 9pm? Reading a magazine called Nylon and this issue is all about LA.

I can't wait until.....

13th Wedding anniversary which is the day before Halloween.

Look to your right, what is there? record albums to sell on ebay

Ever cried yourself to sleep?I have, but it's been a very long time ago.

Songs that make you cry. There are about half a dozen songs on Pet Sounds that really gets me. Hearing some songs and I know that the singer is dead depresses me and makes me cry.

Has anyone thrown you a surprise party? No. I secretly wish for one.

Are you easily excited? Not so much.

What event is coming up that you're excited about? halloween

If you won a million bucks, what would your first thoughts be? Now I can buy that red corvair that's for sale down the street.

If you could have anything right now, what would it be? True happiness

What was your last dream?we were vacationing in LA.

Do any of your dreams come true? Sometimes-it's that whole deja vu thing

What was the weirdest dream you've ever had? Andy Warhol told me I was going to marry that decade.

Do you usually remember your dreams? Sometimes

The only boy who could ever teach me ...

A very nice mother/son collaborative piece on the kitchen wall. It's called Cars In Forest. I love that the little man is beginning to draw with more enthusiasm.

I'm kind of busy here because my mom is visiting. So forgive me if I'm not around very much.

You know I don't talk much...except to myself

I dragged out some old Roxy Music today and that particular song that I've quoted above "A Really Good Time" is me in every sense. Just for today I imagine. There is a line, "All your troubles come from yourself", oh I could go on and on today...

I am pretty sure that I saw the Monarch Butterflies leave on their migration 2 days ago. It was a sunny and warm day, right before a big storm on Wednesday night. I always look for this huge swarm in the sky, but it was more like a few here and there. A bit like follow the leader. I checked on a migration chart, and for our area in New York, 3rd October is the last day for them to leave-and that was the day I saw them.

I'll leave you with this painting I did today of some poppies.